The end

Exhausted does not even begin

To describe the feeling

At the culmination

My three days of spontaneity

Coming to an end

Mentally, physically drained

Am I glad I did this?

Are we crazy for doing this?

Yes and yes.

We cannot even stand at this point

Our legs can no longer hold us up

The ground feels so good

It’s over

The whole experience coming to a close

Relief and discontent.

One of the dumber things

That we have done

Is driving through the night

After three days of not stop

Our bodies exhausted

We decide to drive eight hours

This terrified me more than

Anything that

I saw this weekend

Honestly I thought

That we could die

We walked a thin line

The journey home

We had "no hope to look for

Nothing to look forward too"

I tried to sleep

So I could shut my brain from the fear

It did not work

This crazy weekend has come to its culmination. Do I regret anything? No. It was by far, the most interesting experience of my life. I am grateful to have such good friends in my life to push me out of my comfort zone, and experience the new. I am one who just stays in what is comfortable. My friends have pushed me to be involved in so much more than the box I’m used to staying in. “Music has always sent out lines of flight” (Dekeyze and Guattari’s, “A Thousand Plateaus ‘Introduction:Rhizome’). Music was the center of the weekend. It was so interesting to see that people from all over the world could be brought together by a common cause: music.

It's kind of funny

At the gates

In the line

So close

Out of thousands upon thousands of people

What are the odds

To see him at the gate?

The first person I see

It is the best

For a familiar embrace by chance

It’s funny how things work out

It’s funny how I ended up here

It’s all just really funny

Inside we are here

In almost a fantasy land

The stress I have back home forgotten

Here I am transported to a place

That feels unreal

Futuristic

Each musician acquired his own tent

Apart from the world

Trapped in an orb

The music brought us all here together

And together

“We were going to be insole possession of the most powerful technology in the world.”

Like those on a journey

We all had a mission

To enjoy life through music

It is interesting to see the power of music

And what it makes people do

It can give people amazing strength

Like those science fiction stories you here of

A man climbing a tower to shut power off of a major city

Instead we have people here climb trees

The first day was over, and was a success. The troubles, the worries, the fear, and the stress that came prior was all worth it. Any worries were out the window. I felt in another world. Time was not a constraint. My focus was to appreciate the music. That I conquered. On top of that, to see a familiar face of a friend so dear helped as well. There are a few things I value in life. My good friends and music are top two. I had that this weekend.

What They Said.

Today is day one

The first of these three

I still did not know the plan

“Eat up!” they said

“It will be a long day!” they said

They were veterans in this

I do no normally eat breakfast

Heck, I do really like to each much anyways

A harder meal to swallow

Hours passed

Allowing my mind to get so wrapped

In the “what ifs”

The rest of the crew assembled

Jammed packed in a shuttle

Rented for this group

We embarked to our destination

Our transportation stung of cigarettes

And Spanish tongue

A good amount of traffic

A good amount of conversation

And eventually we have arrived

Brightness

In the scenery

In the attire

…What did I get myself into?

“It will be fun!” they said

“Don’ worry!” they said

Trust issues...

The downside of course is

What happened after it

 And the fact that we are still paying for it.

All are excited

This transpires, contagious

Like a plague that would continue

Three days

Three days

Three days

The two of us already separated from the group

We knew this would happen

And we do not mind

Sometimes it is easier

To travel with less

Because there is less to worry about

And more time to enjoy

The present

Instead of trying to understand

Maybe I should enjoy

For these moments will never be breathed again

“La beauté sera convulsive ou ne sera pas.

Beauty will be convulsive or not at all.”

Where there is no passion, there is no beauty.  

Like André

Infatuated with Nadja

All in attendance are passionate

Their passion drives them mad

Their passion is the music

The beauty in the music

That I have always seen

Will become more apparent

Arrival

Carried my bags across
In search of who?
I did not know them

Trust was put to a test
From the beginning
Sweat beads drip

Carrying the bags
As they rest heavy on my back
The weight of my anxiety

I found them
And had to trust
That they would bring me safely

The soundtrack was pleasing
Seeking comfort in music

Eight hours
     Eight hours
        Eight hours

Sunlight to sunset
Destination achieved


A familar face finally comes to the door
Of this house I do not know

She comes to pick us up
She the backbone of the trip
The planner

She takes us on a trip
To meet another stranger
I have never done this before

Faith in strangers is constant on this journey
Pleased in what we have received from him

Celebrations at her house
On the patio
The open air is needed

Alas, I’ve arrived. My peaceful escape from life.
Here I find some comfort in the unknown
So many questions
Another day for worries

The hazes lulls me to sleep
Calms my weary head
"Rest up, we have a long three days ahead"

My head hits the pillow
Where are the bright lights?
Where is the big city?
Only left now to dream big dreams

The Beginning

Bright lights
Big city
Big dreams

Changes are a constant
Something I cannot control
This scares me

To give up control for an adventure
Sounds like a great idea
But control has always been what I yearn for

Ripped from right under me
A last minute decision
Fear of the unknown

Bright lights
Big city
Big dreams


To trust in those I hold dearest
Is an unsettling thought
From what I always have known

This year has been full of growth
To create this new person
A test to this

Bright lights
Big city
Big dreams

If it weren't for the support
If it weren't for the trust
I would never do this

Two days before
I pack my bags
Purchase my ticket
And go

Bright lights
Big city
Big dreams

 A last minute decision I am convinced to take a journey
An eight hour trip that will become the best weekend of my life
I am someone who needs control and stability
But the best two people in my life had pushed me to do what would be unthinkable prior
This weekend was more than the music
It was the fulfillment of change
An outward cry of self

It became a learning experience
One that I did not know I needed
Because I never thought differently
Than what was always in front of me

I did not know what was happening
I did not know what i was getting into
I did not know specifics
I had to give up POWER
And that was terrifying

Bright lights
Big city
Big dreams